Impetus shells the brain

Morning was the time when I was travelling to a far wide place in a broad long metro rail. Something struck my mind, which was powerful enough not to to be ignored. Something so vivid and electrifying that it asked me to act immediately. But act on what ? Act on anything which comes to my mind and I am supposed to act upon. Not to delay and it was much more convincing than Kabir's doha "Kal kare so aaj kar.. aaj kare so ab"... And the day was it when the decision was made that I would do the thing that I am supposed to do then and there and would do it with all the might I can, with all my energy and heart I can conjure. I am not very sure till how long this would last because generally I am "all over the place" with the age I am in ( 25yrs and 11 months completed on this earth )... but I can at least hope that I will sustain this emotion for as long as I can. While I write it down, words of Salman Rushdie cross over my mind, he say "Just because people can write... they think they should" which is again a very powerful statement and accompanying with the same program presented by "Emory University" is," If you wait long enough at the side of the river, you would see the dead body of your enemy floating across"... Now, these would be considered as very unorganized thoughts by a person who understands the organized working of the brain but would this be interpreted by someone's whose mind works naturally.. I suspect it would not.. Anyhow.. right now its too lazy a time 4:30 pm of the day ( I thought of writing this @ 10:00 am in the morning, but because of the title of the blog I completed all the tasks first which I should have ) and am signing off.. Chaoo..

Well in the pic you can see Orbitofrontal cortex, part of the prefrontal cortex which controls you acting on a  whim

It's about my chubby buddy !!!

While having food at a north indian restaurant in a south indian place with a colleague I know, had me talk about a secret even hidden to me. It was very incomprehensible about how exactly the discussion sprang out from the inmost portion of my head...It was about life of a person closer to me than my own shadow... It was few years back.. He was out of school looking around in a puzzled fashion towards this world... His father had him, somehow, admitted to a college which was 2 hours drive away from their home... In the moment of excitement and unawareness, he took up the option of staying at a hostel, than travelling on a regular basis from home to college and then back. Before he could relish and enjoy a very short lived happiness, he realised that he was in a notorious city with notorious yobs surrounding him @ an ugly hostel. The guy was an almost regular visitor of 5-star hotels in Delhi and the transition was not settling to him.. Anyhow , he called me one day telling that seniors wanted him in the raw and he was devastated on mere thought of that.. They wanted him to buy "rubber" and lingerie from the market.. I told him to better get himself off that hell, than taking this crap... He did indeed !!! Now, after few years.. he is working in a mid-size company.. as something or the other... but the story does not end here... Here is the amusingly depressing part that could be understood through psychology... A part of him still feels that he was the one who ran away and needs to undergo that ragging in order to succeed.. He feels he needs the punishment that he was "supposed" to receive, which he didn't, so he keeps on crucifying himself in some or the other manner..and the truth is that he does not know about it himself !!! He walks on the road.. does not live at a very happening place.. does an average job than he can ... does not cherish the company of much people, let alone being a social butterfly..has given up on his air conditioned car.. television.. DVD player... his best buddies...beer ...chicken.. etc etc.. His life is much deteriorated than it would if he had done a crime or committed some sin... A lot of things remain un-answered in this mysterious world.. It is just to analyze ... then conclude...

Relief ... haaaa !!!

Relief is the order of business... what do you want to talk about ??? WOW !!! Business of relief.. a feeling craved by many, pursuit by few.... but if the desire is strong enough, they say, then it would over-ride any other force that is a hinderance in your way of pursuing it !!! I have walked on the road.. sometimes feeling ugly , unassured, doubtful and angry on myself ... sometimes feeling self-assured, confident , calm personified and happy about life and me being here... these feelings stand miles apart.. one on the north and the other on the south of the world... Though it does take considerable amount of time to travel between these two opposite ends, but miraculously these feelings can switch in less than the time it takes to blink an eye !! These feelings are something that lets you know that everything's gonna be o.k.. You life would open up brilliantly... you are going to shine like the sun,.. life starts looking more colorful and vivid with such a feeling in the heart... and the song long forgotten "DIL DANCE MAARE" starts singing itself in your head and you hope that the feeling never goes away from your being... irrespective of people around you, you start feeling happiness withing your heart and allow the world the way it wants to be.. and allow yourself what you want to be .. It makes me reminisce of Protima Bedi's golden words ..." You have only to ready yourself, to allow things to happen as they should. The greatest favour you can do yourself is to 'get out of your own way' "...

Suffering: It's a rehab !!!

It was a Friday morning, The mirror infront of my face reflected various facets of my own person. A thought flashed through my mind.. it was new.. it was of my own.. not googled.. neither asked.. Why is there so much suffering and if it is then what purpose does it solves in ones life ?? As if I have gone through a lot already ??? An answer bounced from one of my nerves resting inside my brain.. It is a REHAB.. The more one goes through pain period, the more vivified his/her life becomes... Suffering totally changes a person and so does a rehab centre.. All addictions are gone.. At least they do fade.. Same are the sufferings.. They are a medium to change oneself, because that is the time when the real you comes out and starts taking action. That is the time when the numbness of the mind vanishes and you get animated.. full of vigor.. full of life.. right there.. ready to face what the world offers and ready to offer the world your own facade, which is beautiful like GOD's handwriting...

Good morning people !!!

Today was a wonderful start.. got up @ 4 am with a sore throat !!! gargled n slept like a child.. only to get up and see message of a near n dear one, pointing out towards the promise that I undelibrately broke... I re-assured of my promise mentioning it shall not happen again ( was feeling like a student of 2nd class, to whom a teacher tells :" Write on the black board--> I will not talk in the class.. I will not... will not.. not !!!! ) A reply to message was drenched with acid wit telling me that Promises are like babies... fun to make.. hell to deliver ... This is the same personality in my life that religiously follows the quote " JUST DO IT "... and inspires me to so the same.. Anyhow, the message I received was while on my way to office.. on my daily fight to find an auto that could offer me a drop till the office on meter !!! I generally do a shabby trick of standing a little distance behind the other gentlemen/gentlewomen standing, so I could be the one the ric should stop for first and it does...... today I followed the same routine ( a lady in multicolored suit was staring at me with contemptful eyes for the same reason, but I was too late for the office and the decent human being within me could not vivify ) and a ric did stop. I told him where I needed to go and he refused n moved further to that multicolored lady ... She told the same address and got inside.. What was that ??? Who says there is a discrimination against women !!!These ric drivers are not at all interested in taking men to their destinations... It's the other sex they are pondering about ... Signing off !!!

BRain GAmE

Well, I started writing strategically , but then ... screw it .. its better to go with the flow isn't it ? Talking about mind.. its a very powerful weapon , if one could make its use in a direction one wants to.. wonders could happen.. Have been engrossed on job psychology of my brain.. well here's how it rolls !!! Mind keeps on telling that you can , any given day, do better than what you currently are doing... But right there something holds you back from doing that, saying, we could do it later couldn't we? Whats the use.. Your intelligence any how , could be shown at the time it is really required.. Otherways,,screw it man,, just play ignorant !! a bird in the hand is worth two in the bushes..But, what i realised and experienced is, that with such psychology, you tend to loose the real you and in actuality become a dumbass... At the required time, intelligence is eating the grass...So,, doing the best is the BEST policy rather then waiting for lights to turn green... AND THEN SHOWING YOUR INTELLIGENCE !!!

A day in my life

Flaming sun is on my head... There is an alley to be walked through...People are moving around as usual without knowing their purpose and majority looks confused as to which planet they have come to... Some are faithful n confident n self -assured.. some are cynical.. unsure and timid... Age no bar... Dr. Joseph Murphy tells in his books that who we are is directly proportional to what we feed to our subconsious mind.. But.. its the most difficult ( sometimes easy ) thing to go forth without failing... You want to feed nice, colorful, fancy stuff to the brain, but the contrast in this world does not let you do so... The only fight is to create a perfect place in your brain, because in reality it does not exist and cannot and does not need to !! Because you need contrast to stirr things up.. to realise the value of what you have got and what you really want in life.. !! There comes a girl of about 27-30 years of age...Well dressed.. cutely carrying herself in the champagne colored dress with traditional brown flowers on it she is wearing ... Indians stare at her as she breezes through the road.. My eyes are not on the girl ( not bz m gay ) ... but on those prurient buggers who stare at her with an intent that could spoil the blog , if I care about writing it here... I quote winston churchill here : "There are two things that are more difficult than making an after-dinner speech: climbing a wall which is leaning toward you and kissing a girl who is leaning away from you."... True man... I never did climb a wall leaning towards me .. !!!